Can I handle this?

Daniel, who worked on the NST with me last year just got back from his trip to Argentina. Today was the first time I spoke to him in 8 months. A key theme emerged: stability and commitment.

I have been struggling with this issue for a while now. Last week I was discussing my new home with my parents and started getting this weird feeling. I felt the blood rushing to my head, breathing very fast and flushing hot: yes, I had my very first panic attack! For the record, I am a strong person, I do not get panic attacks...at least this is what I thought.

Daniel was suffering from a reverse cultural shock and he was very much missing the excitement of travel. He felt deprived of new experiences. The future was like a big black hole and he had nothing to look forward to. The calmness of his parent's house made him jumpy.

I recognize this feeling. Many people suffer from this when leaving university, their home town or AIESEC.

A new house for me symbolizes commitment and a lack of freedom. I cannot pick up my suitcase and leave for a new world. I will have a job and a house. All that is missing is 2.1 children, a white dog and a volvo station wagon. Or is it?

Freedom is a choice of mind. I can still quit my job and sell my house. Stability is not equal to boredome. Life has more to offer. I am sure I will manage. My anxiety attack just magicly dissapeared. I can handle this now.
I can handle this...